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Oct. 16th, 2005 @ 08:50 am
Wow. We got seven trophies at yesterday's band competition. It was exciting.

Ok, enough with the kindergarden sentences, time for some real literature!

Drama consumes my life now days, which is very very sad. I know I run into the stereotypical cliche of a highschool student, always getting mixed up in all sorts of unnecessary goo and what not, but still, it's exceedingly ridiculous.Life, though, is great, I'm strong, smart, and alive!I've been complemented on my intellect by some of the AP teachers, which is very good seeing as how they teach college level classes.The football coaches have seen how much I can lift in all accounts and are asking Mr.Mac if they could maybe use me in away games next year.I've found out that a girl who I've liked forever and on has liked me since about last year, which leads back to the drama.Oh, how I hate the drama.
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: That Saturday-Home Again

Sep. 22nd, 2005 @ 07:19 pm
Highschool is very very different from middle school.It requires so much more than middle school. I've got marching band practice everyday from 2:30 to 5:00 then choir practice from 5:00 to 7:00.I'm getting tired and I've lost about 10 pounds from all the water and pushups and weight lifting days.
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: Pink Floyd-Wish You Were Here

Jul. 23rd, 2005 @ 10:58 am
Don't you hate it when you're mad and you end up doing things out of spite that eventually end up screwing you over, or, in the least, pissing you off?Now that my lame ass birthday is over( everything was cool except that none of my friends except for a dude named Robert, who I love to death, came and he was shy as hell so he got bored and I ended up leaving like 5 songs before I came up to sing because I hated to see him like that ). At least I had family there, family is the number one most important thing in a dudes life so I'm thankful for that. I was so mad at Kelley for not being able to come that I told her that I'm not going to take her to the movies today because she probably wouldn't want to go to that either...therefore screwing up my chance with her, which brings us back to the subject. Don't you hate it when you're mad and you end up doing things out of spite that eventually end up screwing you over, or at least pissing you off? I know I do!

'Till next time, peace out.
Current Mood: P.O.ED
Current Music: The lovely melody of the fan...

Jul. 21st, 2005 @ 01:45 pm
My birthday blast is tomorrow, seeing as how I'll be at band camp when my birthday rolls around.It's gonna be fun I guess. I' m gonna bring around 2 of my friends or if all goes well with Kelley's mom, 3, so whoever is going, be sure not to embarrass me, please, and if this message gets around to Chris, I'll be most appreciative.

Peace out.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Nine Inch Nails- Only

Jun. 23rd, 2005 @ 11:57 pm
PURITY: 77% sex, 35% substance, 37% moral [56% total]
Well done! The higher your scores, the more "pure" you are. The lower, the more you've experienced.

This test was about done deeds, so your numbers will never climb. [It's interesting to think they all started at 100%.] But will your purity continue to fall? Will you OUTGROW or will you OUTDO your past experiences? It's up to you.





Advisory:


  • Don't date anyone if your moral purities differ by more than 30%.
  • Don't run a business with anyone if your substance purities differ by more than 40%.
  • Do be friends with someone who has less than 1/2 your sex purity. You'll enjoy their colorful company.


Note: as for the "TOTAL" purity value - that's a weighted combination of your scores, indicating what a typical purity test might say about you.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You scored higher than 15% on substance

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You scored higher than 75% on sex

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You scored higher than 8% on moral

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You scored higher than 36% on TOTAL
Link: The 3-Variable Purity Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid


I'm not exactly badass, but at least I'm not a goodiegoodie.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: none

Jun. 23rd, 2005 @ 05:05 pm
Your brain: 100% interpersonal, 140% visual, 120% verbal, and 40% mathematical!
Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:



  1. Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
  2. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
  3. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You scored higher than 71% on interpersonal

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You scored higher than 79% on visual

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You scored higher than 82% on verbal

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You scored higher than 20% on mathematical
Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: Beastie Boys- No Sleep till Brooklyn

Jun. 23rd, 2005 @ 02:37 pm
I am nerdier than 6% of all people. Are you nerdier? Click here to find out!

I don't despise nerds! Huh, I guess I am just a dork.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: none

Jun. 21st, 2005 @ 10:27 pm


You Are a Visionary Soul





You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul




I'm special. :)
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: none

Jun. 21st, 2005 @ 12:02 am


Your #1 Match: ENFP




The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.


Your #2 Match: INFP




The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.


Your #3 Match: ENTP




The Visionary

You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.
You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.
Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.
You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.

You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.


Your #4 Match: INTP




The Thinker

You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.
Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.
Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.
A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.

You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.


Your #5 Match: ESFP




The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.


Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: none

Jun. 20th, 2005 @ 10:44 pm
Your IQ Is 120

Your Logical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Exceptional



Damn I'm smart.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: None
Other entries
» (No Subject)
Has anyone hear ever heard of an unlucky foot. I swear to god I think I'm cursed...
» Highschool
I'm going to high school soon. I'm kind of scared, kind of relieved. I'm relieved to be out of standard junior high, but scared because I'm going to be going to a new school, andI'll have to make new friends. I guess it's good that I get to start over with my reputation, going from the troublemaker to the studious student that I should be. I almost failed last year thanks to my need for attention from my pupils. I could've passed with flying colors, but I didn't feel I needed to exert any of my intelligence into school because I thought that if I just passed T-Cap and my writing assessment I'd pass for the year( those were the only reasons I passed, but it's good to not rely on that next year ). High school's going to be a trip, but that's what life is, a trip, so It's good if I experience the reality of high school.
My friends and I have an idea to travel to California after graduation. Kelley is serious about it, she even made a list of where we're gonna stop when we were talking last night. I just hope we don't get separated from one another. I can't just say what we plan is going to happen because life has a funny sense of humor and likes to separate a great deal of people, I just hope it's not us. I've rambled enough for one day.

Till next time. Peace out...
» (No Subject)
Someone help me here.Okay, here is the situation, what do you do when you've got a friend you really like and you would do anything for her, but she just gives you grief and shit. Do I forget about her and keep her out of my life, do I talk to her about the whole situation, or do I just keep on with it no matter how it turns out every day?
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I just started listening to Neil Young, and for some strange reason.....I like it.My taste in music has defined itself in the past three years or so, and I finally realize what kind of music I like more than anything...Bluesy-rock/grunge.I have finally matured into the mold that will fit me the rest of my musical life, isn't that wonderful.
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I feel like shit, and have been feeling this way for 3 damn months.



enough said...
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                                      Thanks to the brilliance of alfawolph  my computer is now fixed. If I had some money I'd pay you.

            Well, I'm in the mood for teenage rambling, so it'll have to suffice.

Last night I went to the harvest festival at school because Caylin and Kelly wanted me to go. I had some fun, up until all my friends left.Caylin and I hung out the rest of the night and she gave me face paintings.We then went on the hayride and threw hay at cars and houses. She had fun with her friends while I sat there just hangin' out, but after the hayride we walked around and talked more. I think I really like her.

     Well, I think you're probably getting tired of this, so I'll close it.

 

Till tommorrow.

 


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Well, I've once again crashed my computer. It's been screwed up since like the end of April.I'm posting on my sister's computer right now. I'll post back when my computer is fixed.
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Formal has totally snuck up on me. I want to ask Caylon, but I don't know if she's goin' with anyone or not, so I'll get back to that.I'm thinkin' of askin' Kelly if all fails, but her boyfriend would probably pull some shit to get me and him at it again. I can't hold my temper back with him anymore, so if we do go at it, someone's gonna end up in the hospital, and it isn't gonna be me. I haven't written something decent since the time me and my mom got into it, and I was really depressed.
It felt so good to write again. If I don't write something for awhile, I start getting depressed and angry, and it's hard to control my temper. Even if I write something crappy, I'll at least have some stuff settled, so I try to write every day now.

I think I'll post something from that night with my mom....

"Tonight"


If I cut myself,
Will I bleed,
If I shoot myself,
Will I scream,
If I kill myself,
Will you cry,
If I hurt myself,
Will I die,
They say the happier,
I am in life,
The sadder I'll be inside,
I crawl in a space,
Inside my head,
To lay in place,
AS if I'm dead,

(bridge)No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,

Take the gun from my hand,
And try to help me if you can,
All is well so don't take forever,
OR just stop cause I can do better,
I'll kill myself tonight,

No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
I rode in on higher,
Grounds to set fire,
To this town,
And this world,
I'll Leave alone,
In my mind,
To die alone,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight,

No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,

No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,

I don't wanna pay for this,
In hell so I will kiss,
The barrel of a rifle with my mouth,
To see the bullet fall back out,
I'll kill myself somehow,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight.
» (No Subject)
I have a goatee now.( well it's like a stubble, but it's pretty close )It has attracted the attention of everyone in my cafeteria at school. Everyone liked it, and wanted me to grow it longer. I think i'll keep it smaller. It's like I have a large breasts on my face. No one looks at me when we talk, they look at my chin. I feel sorry for all you busty girls. I have felt your annoyance( and trust me, it is annoying ). Well, at least I don't have boobs on my chin. Now that would attract some attention.

Till next time people, peace.
» (No Subject)
HE FUCKIN HIT HER!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH THE FUCKING GIRLS TODAY!! I FUCKING TOLD HER NOT TO ACCEPT HIS DAMN APOLOGY,BUT SHE FUCKING GOES AND DOES IT ANYWAY!!

I can't stand it anymore. I'm gonna fuckin' slit his throat. He hits her and gets away with it all the time. I told him if he lays one fuckin' hand on her I'd slit his damn throat. Who could go so damn low as to PUT A FUCKIN' HAND ON A WOMAN! I'll show his ass what the consequences are for hitting a girl.All my fuckin' friends tell me to calm down, but they don't understand what the fuck is goin' on.

If a young man is reading this right now, do me a big favor. Never, and I mean never, hit a woman. There is nothing in the world that could piss me off more. IF you do, I hope someone cuts your fuckin' hands off.
» What a fucked up burthday is like.
WEll it all started when I picked up my two dysfunctional friends( nicknames ), Arabian Nights, and Dumbass. We had gotten inside the car and they started making half dirty jokes all the way to the place we would be spending the day IN FRONT OF MY MOM.THen we got to the place and they were spitting spitballs everywhere. They also decided to poke a girls ass at the place. When we got home, they would not shut up ALL DAMN NIGHT, so I just decided to let them keep talking even when my mother kept screaming at me for quite.THat next morning we decided to go into the woods. That wasn't that bad. On the the way back they decided to go in the corn field and start throwing corn at people. WEll, a guy stopped and got out. He then started chasing us through the field. We were running as fast as hell, or at least I was. I slipped into a ditch and my shoes fell off. The dude caught up to us and stopped us and asked us what we were doing. I said throwing corn at cars.He asked us what our names were and I told him. We walked home to find out that they had called my step-dad.He was pissed outta his mind.Then my friends and I had this big fight and one of them came over to the house and did doughnuts in our yard. I came out side and started shootin my pellet gun( so I wouldn't hurt anyone ). The guy driving the car threatened to run me over and I said" Go ahead fucking bitch,". he then drove the car straight towards me. He stopped so short that I was almost touchin his bumper. I had faced down a car!!! Before this, though, my sister probably witnessed the worst part of my unviolent part of my temper. I was pissed, though.

Even though all this shit happened, I actually had a really fun time.In a weird, drama filled way. I may have lost two of my best friends, but at least I had a really awsome time in the process. I still have two more best friends. My friend, Kelly, was there to support me.( if you are a veteran reader of my journal, you will know the drama behind Kelly, but who really gives a fuck about that.)

Till next time people, peace.
» (No Subject)
I have the stupidest coach. That poor man. He makes doornobs look smart. O well. The reason I'm posting today is to tell everyone who reads that I have a trademark ending phrase now. I am copying my sister. Here it is.


Peace out everyone. Till tommorrow people.
» Cool biotch
I can now play more than three songs( and when I say songs, I mean little bits and pieces of songs) on my guitar! Damn I'm good, in a sucky can't read notes kinda way. I decided just to teach my self guitar instead of pay some dumbass 50 bucks a week to teach me where to put my fingers. One of my friends is gonna jam with me some a little after my birthday. As for my band substance Man, I'm ending it. The two people have been outta town all this summer and we haven't been able to practice so I'll make a new crew ( don't worry, the guys did't wanna be in the band anyway). Consisting of some of my very close friends, Evan, Brandon, Brandon D., and Kelly. But enough of that. My brother stole my N64 while I was at camp, so I'll probably be posting on here a bit more.
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Doesn anyone know any good teacher for guitar lessons? I need something in the 20 dollar range maybe higher, but if you do comment.
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I made a new community!

http://www.livejournal.com/community/2stonesaway/

check it out if you have a creative spark and you want to set it( that sucked ).
» bangs
My poor self...I got my hair done by my brother. He cut all my bangs off and left a horrible mess on the right side of my head. No offense, Chris, but you can't cut my hair anymore. I am officially getting a restraining order to keep your hands 10 feet away from my head at all times. You will be guarded by a police officer. If you cross the line you will be executed!No mercy.

And those of you who have seen my new icon, that is not my work, I did not put it on there, and I am going to find out who did( not that it's bad, just that I don't like the idea of people getting into my account, it's actually quite good). It looks like DANS work.I wonder how DAN is doing.
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"Father"



What happened to you,
Years ago,
I couldn't use you,
Years ago I couldn't sooth you,
Now I want to abuse you,

Father,
So much hate,
Father,
Such disgrace,
Father,
Black love today,
Father,
Far too late,

What happened to you,
When I heard of your life,
Since you don't have one,
You wish you knew me,
I'm better off,
Without you,


Father,
So much hate,
Father,
Such disgrace,
Father,
Black love today,
Father,
Far too late,
Father,
So much hate,
Father,
Such disgrace,
Father,
Black love today,
Father,
Far too late,Father,
So much hate,
So much hate,

The end for you,
Beginning for me,
It's sin for you,
Beginning for me,
It's the end for you,
Beginning for me,
It's sin for you,
Beginning for me,


So much hate,
Father,
Such disgrace,
Father,
Black love today,
Father,
Far too late,

I'm sorry,
You weren't there,
I don't fight myself,
To care.




I find it harder to write about difficult stuff then stuff that doesn't matter. I've been thinkin' of my dad lately. I'm better off without him. It would've been cool if I could've met him, but maybe that's what life had in store for me, to be better than my dumbass dad. I think my life is alot better. I didn't have to meet a man that could've maybe ruined my life if he was in it. I look at some of my friends that know their dads, and they have such a fucked up life. It just makes me wanna fuckin' beat the shit outta somethin' sometimes. Maybe my dad was a good person now, and had a life, a good one. I could've had a better life. The whole issue would make my mother cry if she knew how I felt. When se told me that he died she was cryin' harder than I had ever seen her cry. The only reason, though, was because she didn't know how I would deal with it. I told her it didn't matter so she wouldn't worry. My brother and sister went through almost exactly the same thing i am now. I could talk to them.

I'm done for now. Peace Out.
» (No Subject)
Water
You are water. You're not really organic; you're
neither acidic nor basic, yet you're an acid
and a base at the same time. You're strong
willed and opinionated, but relaxed and ready
to flow. So while you often seem worthless,
without you, everything would just not work.
People should definitely drink more of you
every day.


Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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Nice.

:)
» SUMMER!!!!!!
Yes! It is summer! I am out of school until August something.The great thing about summer is: I'm not gonna fail, Time to do whatever I want, summer job, and last but not least I'm not grounded from the computer anymore. Life is at it's peak right now. I'm sure other peaks will rise up later on in life but for now I'm good.

Last night kicked major ass. Some of my friends and I went to see Van Helsing. It was alright, but that wasn't what was so cool about the night.After the movie, we went outside and I saw some big stick things. Now me not ever having the pleasure of seeing one of those poster holders decided to grab the stick and swing it around. When I did the poster came flying out and hit the ground. It was all torn up and dirty. We left that there.Then we found some tape and started rolling the theater with it. Well then a dude walked up and started yelling at us for messing up his tape. The dude worked there. Then he saw the poster messed up and told us to get the fuck out of here. For revenge I pissed all over his car and on the posters. After that we walked to Danver's. We waited until the girls parents showed up and then we went inside and got something to eat. That was about all really.

God, I would love to do that again.
» (No Subject)
God, I'm so damn tired.I went to some Nazarene church and did a scavenger hunt. Since it was my first time to associate with churchies in awhile, people were surprised when i started making jokes about hemorrhiods. The reason behind the hemorrhoids shit is we had to go to a store for our hunt and i had to go in and beg for some preperation h. A couple people were supprised when I started talking about munchies when someone brought up something about crack. They were cool overall, though, we had a big cushion fight where I beat the living hell outta everyone. We then played hide and go seek. I scared the piss outta all the people when I was it.
I love this church. I may start going. More than likely I won't go, but it's a thought.
» (No Subject)
I don't understand all this shit about how it's so hard to pass up a chance to smoke some weed. It really isn't. One of my friends brother tried to smoke some shit with me( probably some crap he found off some pothead who was sellin' shit )
. Well I was like hell no dumbass. It pisses me off because you think you know someone, then they turn around and start tryin' to screw you over. If you wanna get high so bad, do what everyone else does, spin in a circle for an hour or so, then start breathin' real deep. That way you're still in good health afterwords, and you aren't broke stayin' that way.

I just remembered that. Amazing what 5 cokes and The Cure can make you think of.
» (No Subject)
Well, my writing strike really didn't last long.

I will write you a song,
A song to dwell on...


"Dedications for the Losers"


I am a loser,
An abuser,
Of life,
We are liars,
And defiers,
Of the mind,
So dedicate your day,
To us,
Cause this is,

The dedications for the losers,
We dedicate this world we rule,
To all you major fools,
And all you sullen tools,
We dedicate this power we have,
To all the stupid dads,
Who told us we were fags,
We are back,
To kick ass,

I don't want any help,
Had it all my life,
Everyday,
We fooled around,
When we hit the ground,
Had them help us up,
and we ran away,
Well not today,
Cause we rule,
Give the dedications,

The dedications for the losers,
We dedicate this world we rule,
To all you major fools,
And all you sullen tools,
We dedicate this power we have,
To all the stupid dads,
Who told us we were fags,
We are back,
To kick ass,
The dedications for the losers,
We dedicate this world we rule,
To all you major fools,
And all you sullen tools,
We dedicate this power we have,
To all the stupid dads,
Who told us we were fags,
We are back,
To kick ass,
To kick ass,

Don't we lose?
Like we always do,
We win now,
We win now,

The dedications for the losers,
We dedicate this world we rule,
To all you major fools,
And all you sullen tools,
We dedicate this power we have,
To all the stupid dads,
Who told us we were fags,
We are back,
To kick ass.

Sorry if that fag coment was offensive. That was the only thing I could find that rhymed and made since.
» (No Subject)
My sister once told me something about myself that I didn't realize that it was true until here recently.I am a cruel person. I don't mean to be, but I am. I tell people the truth whether they really want to hear it or not.I made a girl cry on the phone. She asked me what I thought and I told her. I wish I could beat myself senseless.It would be wise if I watched my tongue. Well, gotta apologize.
» (No Subject)
I find myself pondering on all my thoughts. They all lie dormant in my mind.The reason for all this is I don't write much anymore.I used to try to fool myself into believing I had a talent, and I used to be so vain about everything in life because it all came natural. I guess that's where i get my laziness from, not ever having to work and bleed over a piece of work. I do now. Like I said, though, I have no talent. A talent is something that you feel you're the best at, you feel untouchable. If you keep on thinking you are the best at something, you will end up having to outwrite, outsing, outdraw everyone, you'll be a perfectionist. It is alright to be confident about something, but most people take advantage of their confidence and make it into a million different things.Whenever I write, I feel like I am inside myself, like I can see my heart beating, and feel my brain pulsating(if brains pulsate), and that feeling is great. I just need to stop diving into my mind so much. Nobody understands the language I speak. I speak a language of complete sorrow sometimes, and sometimes utter joy. My language is called writing, it is what I speak. Whenever people see my art( and yes writting is art) they feel I need help, that I need to take my anger and frustration out some other way, but they don't understand that writing is one of the best ways to get rid of your depression.Before I was writing, I was screaming fighting, and beating people up whenever I got mad. My temper now is better than it ever will be.Whenever I get mad now, instead of screaming and getting violent, I sit down and I don't talk. I will just sit there and think.That is why I am going to stop posting up my songs. I'm tired of people always telling me to get help. I have help, and it works better than any medicine or therapy ever would. I need to be alone in myself more, not diving in and looking for a solution immediately, but just stay there and write in privacy.
I will leave you though with one last poem.

"closet Empty"

I am alone,
In my mind,
Where no one can find me,
I close the doors,
In privacy,
So you won't stand beside me,
I enjoy myself,
All over again,
So I can be happy,
And yes I am happy.

Nirvana is what I'm looking for.
Don't know when I will find it,
But I will..soon.
» Peanut Butter with a Side Order of Horse Lips...
God, braces suck when you try to eat something with sticky cheese on it.I was eating at my sisters one of her greek wraps.I was cleaning out my teeth for hours.
» (No Subject)
"Falling Out Day"


Are we friends,
Are we friends forever,
Till we're old and grey,
Till the end is near,
Guess not,
Get ready,
Cause it's falling out day,

Here we are,
Here to stay,
Get outta the car,
Give into the pain,
Cause I think it's falling out day,
Here we go again,

Have a little heart,
It might be fine,
But show some sympathy,
After all,
It's falling out day,

Here we are,
Here to stay,
Get outta the car,
And outta my brain
Cause it's falling out day,
And here we go again,

Am I alone,
Without my friend,
Yeah,
I hate that day,
Falling out day.

I actually liked writting this.
Comments welcome.
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I guess people are still amazed at how late I can stay up.Just because I'm young doesn't mean I stay to my bedtime.Wait, I don't have a bedtime!!!I stay awake till god wants my young mind in it's happy place.It usually already is without sleeping, so god lets me go a couple more hours on.My debt is 5 hours over and I've spent 3 so I'll let you go so I can spend the rest of my happy place time to myself.
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More about my band.If I'm gonna start a band this summer I still need a drummer.Just thought I'd let you all know in case one of you readers out there is interested.
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"Guaranteed Sorrow"



When you lose yourself,
In a dream with no end,
And you scratch yourself,
To bleed,
And when you've cryed yourself,
To sleep all day,
And you beat yourself,
In misery,

You've got,
Guaranteed sorrow,
For many days to come,
You've got,
Melancholy,
For many weeks,
And when the days turn to weeks,
And the weeks to months,
You'll kill yourself,
For some relief,

When you play the guitar,
And you can't play a note,
Cause your finger tips are bleeding,
And when you tell yourself,
Everythings alright,
And then you start to cry,

You've got,
Guaranteed sorrow,
For many days to come,
You've got,
Melancholy,
For many weeks,
And when the days turn to weeks,
And the weeks to months,
You'll kill yourself,
For some relief.

Comments welcome.
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"All in my Head"


Lonesome,
And disregard,
I guess that's why,
I'm so scarred,
I have no where,
When I wake up,
Just faulting hope,
That won't shut up,
I don't feel right,
Outside of my head,
I wish I could die,
So I could sleep forever,

But it's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I like it,
It's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I'm happy,
It goes away,

I feel safe,
In side my bed,
Where I drift off,
Into my mind,
But when I fall asleep,
And the dreams don't come,
I know i must be awake,
Somewhere in space,

But it's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I like it,
It's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I'm happy,
It goes away,
It goes away,
It goes away,

I rather stay asleep,
Where no one is with me,
I can be alone,
With myself,
To sort out my life,
But I know it's all in my head,

But it's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I like it,
It's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I'm happy,
It goes away,
It goes away,
But it's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I like it,
It's all in my head,
It doesn't matter if I'm happy,
It goes away,

Lonesome,
And disregard,
I guess that's way,
I'm so scarred.

Comments welcome.
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I'm thinkin' of startin' a band.
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"Dead"


I walked that sullen walk,
Down her road,
Remembering what we once had,
But it now is dead,
Dead and buried,
With our memories,
With her,

She caught my glimpse four years ago,
When we where still young,
She laughed and smiled,
But she can't smile anymore,
Cause she's dead,
Dead and buried,
With our memories,
With herself,

I cried that sullen cry today,
As I looked at her picture,
I feel she's next to me,
But my mind is dead,
Dead and buried,
With our memories,
With her,

I laughed my sullen laugh last night,
As I tucked myself in,
I thought of her,
Her beautiful face,
Looking at me,
But I'm dead,
Dead and buried,
With our memories,
With her,
Dead.


Well,you can tell that's a free verse.Comments welcome.
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"Drilled Holes in a Bag of Salt"


I have no money,
Nothin' to spare,
That's why I,
I drilled holes in a bag of salt,
To eat a meal for once,
I dumped the pills in my mouth,
To end this pain for once,
But I'm still hungry,
And still in pain,

I have no one,
No one for me,
That's why I,
I drilled holes in a bag of salt,
To get some satisfaction,
I cut myself,
So maybe I'de get a reaction,
But I'm still lonely,
And still alive,

I have a box of junk,
From the home where I once lived,
That's why I,
I drilled holes in a bag of salt,
To pleasure myself,
To pass the time,
I shot myself today,
And I'm pleasured forever,
And dead.

That was a funny/depressing one.
Comments welcome.
» Epiphany Page
I am the anonymous writer of epiphanies at our school.I write them and then tape them to peoples' lockers.They apparently are working.People read them all the time, and the teachers are trying to find out who is doing it.Here are a couple.


When the world ends,
And you're all done and gone,
You will realize the wrong,
You have lived on,

Shout out,
When you want love,
But don't scream,
When you've had enough,

When you're on top,
Don't forget,
Who's holding you up,

Dreams are like bombs,
If they blow,
They could be the worst thing in your like,

Those are only a couple.Most are probably being confiscated at school to be studied.
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"Dangerous Crime in Sanity Life"


We all scream,
When the people try to sing,
We all go insane,
All insane,

It's a dangerous crime,
In sanity life,
To pass by the boundaries,
Of what we all like,

Hate we shall do,
To the people just like you,
Different from the rest,
We are the best,

It's a dangerous crime,
In sanity life,
To pass by the boundaries,
Of what we all like,
I say it is a dangerous crime,
In sanity life,
To pass by the boundaries,
Of what we like,
Uptight,

Perfect society,
We don't watch tv,
It disrupts our way,
Every day,

It's a dangerous crime,
In sanity life,
To pass by the boundaries,
Of what we like,
I say it is a dangerous crime,
In sanity life,
To pass by the boundaries,
Of what we like,
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah it is,

If I fall down,
I will not be crowned,
Like it is supposed to be,
Like it is supposed to be.
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" The Pale and Clear"


Rolling down my throat,
My confidence goes into hiding,
As I tap here on her shoulder,
She shudders and turns,
Feeling the cold touch of my flesh against her own,
Invisible I must be,
For she can't see me,
She looks and turns,
Tears rolling down her face,
Wandering what the hell is going on,
My eyes meet hers,
But she looks right through,
I don't understand,
Why am I not revealed,
She looks sad in discomfort,
And it is then that I realize,
What I have become,
A ghostly shadow,
Among a wild ride,
Coming through my passage to hell.
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Silvery white,
Floating through my mind,
Holding many thoughts,
I see the water,
Trickling down the window,
And I feel,
Texture upon my skin,
Weird it is,
When I wake up,
And I am ready,
To feel and see,
To hear and smell,
The days belongings,

All is well here,
These days atop my brain,
Yes I am going soon,
TO a place where I am greeted,
As if I were royal,
A place in my head,
My own conscience,
These places let me load the silver white float,
With thoughts of my shades,
Shapes and sizes,

Gaps in the hour,
Make fast of the day,
So my head can let loose,
And forget,
I sleep,
Replenishing my memory,
For the next day of thoughts.

I just made it up, so it might suck. Comments please.
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"Lonely"


Don't worry child,
I'm here with you,
Forever,
Don't worry child,
I won't leave you,
Is what she said,
But now that he left,
I understand,
What life is about now,

Don't cry,
It's all alright,
You aren't alone,
Look inside your head,
Find the happy place,
And stay,

Used to cry and scream,
But I'm through now,
With the shit I used to do,
All the time,
I'm fine here,
All alone,
I wait for her,


Shoot the sun,
And hope it falls out,
So you can hang it out,
On your head,
She'll notice you then,

Forever I wait,
Alone in here,
Forever I hold,
A place in my heart,
Forever I wait,
Alone in here,
Forever I hold,
A place in my heart,
Forever...

comment away.


I hate talking to people now(besides my intermediate family).I'll probably just be writing in here for a while.
» Roaar!!
Dragons are powerful...
Your A Dragon! Whether your the fire, electric, or
ice dragon, you are very powerful and wise.
Fire Dragons usually live in caves, elctric
dragons live in valleys, and ice dragons live
in mountain tops. A dragon represents wisdom,
magic, love, grace, power, intelligence,
determinotion, hounesty, and freedom. You tend
to be a little explosive when your angry, so aa
dragon can cuase lightning storms, blizzards,
or heatwaves. Dragons are solitorey creatures,
or lay live together, just not near humans.
Whichever dragon you are, you certaintly are a
rare mythical creature.


What Mythical Beast are you?
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